Sometimes, when I would tell my dad about some outrageous thing I wanted when I was a kid he would say, "Well, want in one hand and pee in the other and see which one gets filled first." Yeah, I know, but still. He had a point. Wanting something wasn't going to get me any closer to actually getting it. I should have said, "So, here's what I want and this is what I'm willing to do to make it happen." But what nine year old uses reason? Anyway - my point. I want something. I want it with all my heart and soul but I'm not really doing anything to make it happen. I just keep saying that I want it. I need to do some serious thinking and be honest with myself about what I am and am not willing to do to make it happen. Being honest with yourself is really hard. Really. I can talk myself out of, or into anything so I can always reason one way or the other depending on the direction of the wind. I'm really going to try this time though. I want to write a story that will make people feel they are better off for having read it. One that will have someone laughing and someone crying simultaneously on different ends of the country. And God help me, I feel like that story is in here, caught somewhere between FireFlys, LLL, and, PwF. So, now the only question is, what am I willing to do to make it happen?